After another bastard round of editing, I made it through the hair pulling, head slapping, and screaming at my computer. Beta readers this time of year are scarce, but in gong through Wish for Survival (Book 2 of my Embracing Entropy Series) again and really adding in some more depth I feel like she stands well.
It’s fucking frustrating to try and gauge your own writing. There are so many little things to look out for now. And finding the balance between cutting out the fat and keeping it detailed is a big fat bitch. I don’t know what I’m doing half the time. I’m shooting from the hip. Following my gut. Hoping my heart bleeds correctly.
Everything with this series has come together in such a sweeping motion that I don’t know what to think. But I talked with my publisher today (European Geeks) and she asked me to send it over.
I’ve never had the weight of a series crushing me before. I love By the Stars (book 1). It is me. A lot of the struggles in there are existent in real life. To a different degree, but the 2nd installment of a trilogy (because this series is only set to be a trilogy) is what will really defines it.
I don’t know if my publisher will even accept what I’ve sent her. That’s a whole new ball of “what that fuck am I doing”. haha But I am owed nothing and I try to remember that everyday. If the story resonates it’ll work. If it doesn’t, I’ll survive. It’s just like everything else in life.
Nothing is guaranteed. So now…I wait.